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you lose faith and the best way to not be reminded and, two-fold, to not run the risk of regaining it, is to avoid. avoid all you can that you know to be ultimately beneficial to your intellectual and spiritual self: wherever the darkest center of your issue lies. no smiling, no laughter. no easy…

Grow ‘N’ Go

Spread seeds across the lake of my sowing. They float to depths from which great stalks will then grow, touch the surface, from miles below. Temptatious aqua-fairies take refuge in their twisting tentacles. Locks of zest green tendrils touch all their most private places. Alone, I know they’ll come around to speak their labyrinth network and…

get with it, baby..

time sucks no where no place left alone to bask in blinding light that only hurts me: not enlightened return to self to normal me to be: seems entropy okay, same way around… CONFOUND the senses to reach a higher sense of freedom live, let live breathe, exhale before you turn pale: go stale -Jan…

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Yesterday I fell from your good graces and today I fell back into you. Long live the servant, I am to my insolent flux. I cling to you: the energy you give, I need to live. – December 5, 2011

low

bedtime lullaby to sadness, to let myself sleep forget full of faces I can’t see you without my glasses no, I can’t see clearly… where are you in this misty chaos, of our past and the present and my future?   I am divest of you I am divest of all I just might fall…

family & I

a song and an ode never want to go to sleep never want to close my eyes never want to wake and see I’ve got no feeling in my thighs / hope i’ll see you one day i’ll be by your side we’ll look out at the ocean we’ll hear the seagulls cry / i’ll…

Cramped heart

“Won’t sleep ’til I’ve felt as bad as I can” Cramped heart in bed with love no peace thinking of who you might love. small details now great, the girls of yore – I insinuate “are you OK?” a final ‘nite’. no answer there pain stings, in bites not my game this tempest, love it’s…

Together Alone

“on the anonymous online community and chatroulette” Walked alone today to bridge the gap between past and present; My fate must relax. Wandered away for fear that I’d be followed by paranoid, incessant ringing: that final feeling, of family: Death’s most personal tie. So I’ll put on my suit and a smile, to boot to…

Can’t Remember

Can’t remember- the pot contaminates the focus of the brain   I can’t remember I live alone and I slumber, awake. Phew, out goes the smoke…   Edges of the lines blur, and my mobile keeps on ringing. I recline, Funkadelic, on my drifting carpet.   I was crying, and why? wouldn’t you do the…

Guess You’re Gone

Guess you’re gone, has it been so long since last I felt your hand what I wanted has changed oh brother of my spirit once we felt each others’ eyes, each others’ skins, was a wreckage whole with you. Be my fucking valentine next year we’ll make the grade, yes, next year we’ll make the grade.…